Day 2

So today Ray is racing his Pinewood derby car at the district level, I am super excited for him...

Write something that someone told you about yourself that you never forgot.

When I was quite young my father told me to always be myself, to never let others dictate who and what I am and who and what I will become.  I feel that I have both embraced this and failed at it, while it is true that I am good at being me, that I have always been an outsider, always been too opinionated and sure of myself, I have never let outsiders effect my views of who and what I am, which most definitely did not make me popular among my peers, once I had my boys, especially my oldest, they dictated my future, what I wanted was no longer what was important, only they were, so in tha5 sense I have failed...

What is your middle name and what is it’s significance?

Virginia, it was my grandmothers middle name on my fathers side.

Until the next time...

Day 1

Ok, so I decided to do both...

List 10 things that make you really happy.

1. My boys

2. My husband

3. My dog

4. Driving with my music blasting, the window down and not a care in the world

5. Exploring a new place

6. Sharing things I enjoy with other people

7. Reading a good bookl

8. Watching my kids light up over something new

9. Watching a great movie

10. Travel

Put your IPod on shuffle. List the first 10 songs that play and how you feel about them.

1. Just Give Me a Reason - Pink ft Nate Ruess

            - Hopeful, Romantic, it’s a beautiful song 

2. Warmth - Full Metal Panic OST

           - Peaceful, Calm, this is a good meditation song

3. Smoking is Sexy - Forward

           - Intrigued, I’m not entirely sure where this song came from, but it’s not too bad

4. Gangsta - Kehlani

           - Wanting, I so associate this song with Suicide Squad that I really want to watch the movie, I love Harley, her crazy and mine click

5. Unrecognizable Japanese Song Title - Unrecognizable Japanese Band

           - Good, I don’t know how else to describe it, it’s building to something really positive and bringing me for the ride

6. I Ka Barra (Your Work) - Habib Koite and Bamada 

           - Positive and Fluid, it makes me want to dance, the beat is amazing

7. I’ll Take You Back - Brad Paisley

           - Amused as hell, I know people who need to take this song and run with it because they just don’t get no

8. Genie in a Bottle - Christina Aguilera 

           - Reminscent, I knew all the words and dance moves to this song, plus I had a huge crush on Christina, she is one hot lady

9. Happy Boys & Girls - Aqua

           - Manic, this song is crazy in a good way

10. INST. - Unrecognizable Japanese Band

           - Distrubed, there’s a ton of weird notes and noises, it’s definitely strange

Well that’s day one, and it took about 12 hours to do because I am always running here or there for someone or something and today was no different, which is of course the point of this exercise, so I can get back in the habit of writing at least something everyday...

A New Start

Ok, so in an effort to Kickstart my writing, and to hopefully get myself to blog everyday I am going to attempt a 30 day Challenge, now as you know there are 31 days in March, so I guess today is just an announcement of what is to come, there are actually two I am hoping to follow, I am just not sure whether to do them simultaneously or back to back, I guess I will decide by tomorrow, either way, here they are to peruse, and more importantly so they don’t get lost in my photos, thanks Pinterest for throwing these into my path...

Writing

So I have decided, that I am going to start sitting down and writing 10-15 minutes a day, and we will see where it goes from there, I just feel as though I need an outlet, something or someplace to explore the things inside of me, but in a safe environment, I don't know if I will share them here on one of the blogs or if I will keep them to myself, probably a little bit of both truth be told, I may decide to share parts of a story or the ideas behind it, I just need a creative outlet. I still intend to keep doing the photography, but I find that I just don't have the time to go out and explore lately and because of this my mind is exploding, so hopefully this will help. Anyways, I think that's all I have for you tonight, as always thanks for listening!

Hi

So it's been a while, again, I know I suck at updating, but I don't always find the ability to write. Today I am doing this to try and get in the mood because I have recently stared volunteering at the museum, and I have some things to write, but I just haven't felt it, if that makes sense, and seeing as I have to turn them in Friday, I really need to feel it soon you know...

So here I am, since I last wrote we have gone through all of the major holidays and are now coming up on summer, the boys have both done very well in school this year, and are both looking forward to some awesomeness this summer, I am not yet sure how I am going to pay for their awesomeness, but I will not let them down. 

My carefully planned finances are in ruins ATM, still working on how to fix them, but if anyone wants to give me a loan for 10-15 thousand I am good for it and will happily pay you back over the next few years, and yeah I am both joking and serious! 

Our dryer keeps dying, so I think it may be time to replace it, and I started remodeling the bathroom, got the tile work in the shower done, then I was intending to paint, then next year we would pull out the sink and replace that and the floors, but sadly as I said my finances are crashing around me so we will have to wait and see how that goes.

This year was my hubby's and mine 10th annivarsary, we were gonna head to Hawaii but that did not work out, so we ended up in San Diego instead which was cool, and I was going to get this awesome necklace but we couldn't and then when we could it was discontinued so now I am on the hip unit for a different awesome necklace, but who knows when we will be able to actually buy one. 

I was hoping to head to New York for my birthday, but that did not work out either, and know I realize that I am just complaining, so I am gonna go, my life is really not bad, it is pretty awesome, I just get upset when things don't work out I guess, either way, no matter, I will try and be better about posting. Laters all....

Life

So Lost - So Confused

So Much Pressure

Escape - Waves - Freedom

The Ability To Just Go

Because You Need To

Trapped

In

Responsibilities

Misunderstood - No One Cares

Unattractive

Unwanted

Questioning Everything

Alone

So Very Alone

The end

So this season of TV marks the end of two of my all time fave shows, Glee, and True Blood.  Seeing as Glee is not going to start until January, which I am still upset with btw, this post is all about True Blood.

So I just marathoned the entire season over the last two days around my kids being awake and school and such, and I have to tell you I was really enjoying the beginning of it. I thought it had a good premise, which is saying something because after last season I was really sorta on the fence about this one with the time jump and Sam as the mayor and all, but I think that all made sense, it all worked into the story, it just all flowed nicely.  And it kept flowing well all the way to the end, the final episode though, for me at least it just feels wrong.

They took what was undoubtedly one of the darkest shows on television, and they ended it at what amounts to a fucking tea party.  Everyone is happy, life is wonderful, lots of happy endings, they seriously just ruined seven years worth of amazing work with one episode.  Don't get me wrong, some of it fit nicely, I actually enjoyed the wedding, though I feel as if there should have been some way for Hoyt to get back his memories, I mean, her blood, sex sphere should be someway for the vampire who gazed you to unglazed you, plus that would have brought more conflict to the show which would have been nice, because no way does everyone live happily ever after on True Blood, it's just not the way the show was meant to end, it's not what it was built up to do. 

Like Eric would ever actually leave Sookie alone, that goes so much against his character, at least when he is right freakin there, it just doesn't make sense to me.  The rest of his line though, what happens with Sara and Pam and the New Blood, that all makes sense to me, just not him with Sookie, that was left unfinished. And why is Jason's kids older than 4, she seems a bit older than Sams daughter, is that the fairy with the whole speedy growing thing, or is that just bad casting, and Sookie with some faceless man, no way, does not work, feels forced to me.  The whole thing just left a nasty flavor in my mouth I guess.  

There was one scene that I loved on the final episode though, Eric driving away with all the bodies, bopping to the music, that was a perfect scene, it worked for his character and it worked with the usual tone of the show, I will say that is probably my fave scene of the season and within the top five for the entire series.  I just wished they had been able to close the whole thing with the sense that scene captured rather than the 'disney' feeling they ended up leaving us with.

Well I guess that is it for my vent, until the next time something crawls under my skin and refuses to leave without being acknowledged in a semi public forum!!! =0)