New Baby!!!

ok, since last we spoke, i was still quite preggers. now i am not!!! yay!! i am now the proud mother of a 8 pound 1 ounce boy named Ray. he is adorable, and he even lets me sleep through the night with the small exception of one feeding. i have no issues with that, and am more than willing for it to continue. i was in labor for a bit longer than expected, especially considering i was scheduled for a c-section, so there shouldn't have been any labor. but it is what it is i guess. i also had a tubligation, so no more kids, which my doctor was very thrilled with because it would seem that my uterus is in no condition to have another child, in fact i was quite lucky to make it through this one, especially after being in labor for almost 30 hours. my doctor was very much we should have done it the first time you came in, but we had no idea that my uterus was so bad. now if i get pregnant again, it will not only be against very big odds, but most likely i will have to terminate the pregnancy, which would kill a part of me, so my poor husband is going to go in and get snipped. that way we have even less chance of that happening. ok, i guess that is all the news for now. school starts again soon, so i'll probably be on a bit more, but who really knows for sure. byes

Randomness

Ok, i suspect that this will be my last post for a few weeks at least, whats different about that. i really have no idea, but hey at least you got warning this time around right. less than a week and this baby is gonna be out of me. thank god. this pregnancy has been hell. i have been sick over 6 months of it, that is just wrong, at least it is to me. with any luck i will have an easy birth this time around, i'm pretty sure i've said it before, but i am going to say it again, infections just stay away, far away from me. i do not want to spend a week or more in the hospital this time around, i hate hospitals.

we have the baby's section of the room put together, its so cute, lots of bright colors. and a dead monkey stuffed toy, there has to be some weird in there, it is me after all. and i have decided that if he turns out to be a she i am going to cry, all of the clothes and such are for a boy. all the big stuff could be used for either, but i really don't want the hassle of a girl, i think they are adorable and such, but they can get into alot more trouble, and just have to be watched a bit more closely, and then when they become teenagers, the majority of them become evil things that i want to wipe of the face of the planet for at least 3 years. i really don't want to have to deal with that, so come on i so need this to be a boy just like the nice doctor man said.

so i have to take 5 classes this semester again, because i am going to have to independant study my way through asl, i need to finish 2 semesters in one for that class, because its not really one i could take online, and michael has decided that going into the army is what he is going to do, so i need to be ready when i am told it is time to leave, no more garuntee to staying here till may like there was before, its annoying though, i am so close to having it done, 8 classes, and then i am done, oh wells. i'll get it even if it takes a bit longer than i would like. then there is still the masters to look into, but i think changing schools for that is going to have to be a necessity at this point.

i'm looking forward to the army though, i'm still a little apprehensive about it, especially when it comes to deployments, i really don't want to have to live without michael again, but i am looking forward to the whole getting away from here thing. we have always lived with our parents very active in our lifes, and i really love them both, but soemtimes i wish we had room to ourselves, and a city without them in it. and the army, that is definately the way of doing that. yay!!!!

hmm, well i think that this is it for now, and as i said earlier, i think this will be the last post for awhile, but then again who knows, i may just surprise us all.

laters all

forgetfulness

so when my computr went away, so did all of my bookmarks, which caused me to forget about many of the sites that i tend to visit on a regular basis. until i noticed the link to this blog on my facebook, i knew i had it, but couldn't for the life of me remember the flipping address. needless to say that issue has been solved, and with any luck i will have my computer back in the next two weeks, this is sadly about two weeks longer than it should be, but hey, it will be fixed and better than ever, supposedly at least, personally i just want it back. ASAP

ok, so onto what has happened this month. we have finally moved rooms, and boy am i glad that that is over with, it was a pain in the ass, and i still have a bit to do. other than that, i hav just been enjoying my time with lil man, in less than a month the baby will be here, so he can use the extra attention.

lets see, the baby will be born on july 27th, the surgery is set for noon atm, but that is likely to change about a week from the day. or so i have been told. my baby shower is going to be this sunday, i really did not want to have a baby shower, but people insisted, and tbey are dealing with it, so i was like whatever.

saturday is one of my fave holidays. the fourth of july, yay USA. i can't wait, though this year will not be as action packed as previous years. i just don't have the stamina to celebrate for 18 hours straight this year, though that may sound like an exageration, it really isn't. from predawn till well aftr dark i am usually doing something or another. i live in a great place for it, there are things going on everywhere so we always have a great selection of stuff to do. this year though will be, some stuff in the morning, nap, some stuff in the early afternoon, nap and of course the fireworks, though i ma not sure wether we will watch those from the house or risk going out into public. i am at the moment leaning towards from mine or a friends, that many people don't seem like somthing i want to deal with at 8+ months pregnant.

so as you shouold know, my husband recently got out of the marines. yay him, the only prob with that is that now he is having issues finding a job within our state that pays anything close to the same, his solution id joining the army or the air force. most likely not the same state, but thats fine with me, i love experienceing new things, what i am not sure of is another deployment, we barely made it thru the last one, and though we are now stronger relationship wise than we have ever been, i really dont want to have to worry about him dying in a war thousands of miles away. i guess we will have to see what happens with that, but i will be sure to keep you all posted.

well, it is almost time for my shopping spree for my kitty. if you want to check it out, then go to daphidilia.superpokepets.com

laters all

icky

today sucks, i feel horrible, but i had a really nice weekend, which is probably the cause of me not feeling my usual perky self. stupid AZ sun really wears me out, it usually does in the summer, and with the baby it is just kicking my ass this year, and we are not even into the really hot part of the year yet, i think that staying inside would probably be the best thing for me to do, but there's just so much to do outside, oh well, i'm sure that i'll figure it out, and besides that is what husbands are for is it not. now if i could only figure out a way to convince him that it would be good to set up the pool, and unfortuneately getting sick for two days after one at the lake just doesn't seem top be it. aw wells.

well we have figured out the room issue, now if we could just get everything moved that we have to, my life would be so much easier, the baby will be here in less than two months, i should find out exactly when today at my appointment, so you would think that my mom would be willing to do what needs to get done, but no, it seems that she is content to wait until the last minute and hope that some little fairy comes and does it all for her, come to think about it that seems to be what my husband is waiting for as well. i don't think that either of them realize that in about 2 weeks, if this ends up like the last one, that i will be put on bed rest, and therefore unable to help them. then they will both be annoyed and having issues, and i will get to sit back, smile and say, well i wanted to do this before, and you guys were always to busy ot to lazy. i have to say i almost hope that happens, just so that they both may stop putting things off to the last minute.

oh wells, that is it for now i guess, i am going to get ready for my appointment, and hope that the tylenol kicks in soon, my head is starting to feel like exploding would be a good thing. laters all.

Freedom

ok, just a quick thing today, hopefully my internets will be back up and running within the week, we can only hope at least. and i am finally done with this semester, it just kept going and going, just like the energizer bunny. i'm glad its summer now, i needed the break. though its not really to much of a break becaue now i have this huge list to do to get ready for the baby, but at least that is all i have to concentrate on. okies, well that be it for now. luvs yous, and talks at you laters.

Bedrooms

ok, so i have come to the conclusion that i need another bedroom, i am just not sure how to go around getting another bedroom. i currently live in a three bedroom house. theres is a nice sized family room that we use as a guest room when we have company. anyways, my mom has one bedroom, my son has the second, and my husband and me have the third. the baby in the begining is going to be sleeping in the same room as my husband and me, not such a big deal you would think, he's small so he can't take up that much room. right.....WRONG....currently, my bedroom has 4 book cases, a dresser w/ tv on top, and a large jewelry box. the closet is packed, and we still tend to lose things that we need because at one point or another they were removed to the shed for more room. i should also mention that we have the smallest bedroom in the house. which we didn't mind until the whole sharing with baby thing came up. now i am trying to figure out how we are going to fit the baby in here, it just doesn't seem like something that is going to happen easily, if at all. now i have thought about switching over into the family room, its a very large room, it was once upon a time the garage, and you would think that this wouldn't be a huge problem, but i can't convince my mom. it is her house after all, but we could move the entertainment section into the living room, and then turn what is now our room into the guest room/office, it really wouldn't be to big a deal, but for her it is. so i am stuck trying to figure out how my house is supposed to grow another bedroom. preferrably, a nice inexpensive bedroom, because i am quite broke atm. if anyone thinks they can help with this adventure please let me know. i would greatly appreciate it. if not, and you actually made it all the way through this post, then thankies much for reading, and i am sorry that i seem to have a lot to vent about at the moment.

Busy Busy

this weekend i got so much done that i've been wanting to do. i'm so happy. the bedroom, which sadly had no floor space for walking is done. i can walk around the bed now, and miracously i have a floor. yay!!! for people who have known me for along time, you know how much of a slob i can be. its not that i like the mess, its just that it has to be perfect, and if i don't have the time for perfection then i give no time what so ever, and everything falls apart around me. i know this is not the best way to do things, but it is the only way for me. stupid ocd. but at this moment it is done, so i am extremely happy, there is a small stack of things that have to go into the shed, but since i can't lift, i have to wait for the hubby to do it, and he works 40+ hours a week, so i have decided to be patient. tomorrow on his day off he can move it. i hope he does at least, the pile is getting on my nerves.

my sister borrowed some of my manga for a few weeks about 2 months ago, i keepasking for her to bring them back, and she keeps ignoring me. see if i let her borrow anything any time in the near future again. my bookcase looks really not perfect because of it. the manga shelve is bricked, the way its stacked is really cool looking, but without all of the volumes it looks very incomplete, and now that the room is clean and wonderful, i want the shelve to be as perfect as it was when everything else was a mess. i know, theres that perfection again.

so i am starting to stress a bit about the new baby, we are only making about 1/4 what we were a year ago, stupid economy. and that is barely enough to pay our bills. i love my mom, but i would rather not live here forever, and we are all trying to figure out where this baby is going to go. we live in a three bedroom house, and all three bedrooms are full, to the brim. we have a family/guest room, but there is so much in there that if we moved into it, i'm not sure where we would put all of the stuff that is in it. it is very annoying how everything sorta catches in on itself at the same moment. i was planning on buying a basonet for the first few months, but now i am not sure whether i will have to money to do that or not. my husband has access to a va laon, but with the job he is working now, i don't think that he would qualify for it. and we would have to use at least part of it to pay off what bills we already have, and i think they can only be used for buying a house or starting a business. stupid rules right. we considered using it to put a second story on the house, but if something happened and we had to move, i can't garuntee that we would still be able to pay for it, so we decided that we can't do that.

as for school, well i have 3 papers and 3 presentations due over the next 4 weeks, and i have not done any part of any of it. so most likely tomorrow will do the presentation for wendsday, and continue that way for the next few weeks. usually i am very anal about my grades, an 'a' or not good enough. this semester i am just trying to pass, its rather frustrating, but its all i can do to keep up, never mind the whole getting ahaed thing and being perfect this semester. if i can pull of b's then i will be pleasantly amazed.

ok, while i'm pretty sure i could probably ramble on for another couple of paragraphs at least, i need to go and finish up my laundry, no letting things hang around, they need to be put away right away, less i lose my perfect room. talk or on this case write to you all laters.