Issues

Why is it that men can never figure out that they should not do certain things.  oh well, whatever, who cares, right.  I have not been having a good few weeks, I have been really depressed, and spending time with my husband while not making it go away does make it feel better some, however he does not seem to care, he is freaked cause I am depressed, but seems to think that he can make it better by leaving, this is not the way to make me better.  when your job calls you on your day off you do not have to say yes everytime.  ever once in a while it would be nice to spend more than 5-6 days a month with my husband, but no...

I know that the next few weeks are going to be hectic, i get that, which is why spending a few days with us would have been a nice thing.  he does not seem to care, so fuck him, right now, just fuck him.  when i need him the most he leaves, thanks a lot hun, nice to know you care.

i am so tired of people telling me what i should feel and that what i do feel is selfish or wrong, they can all just kiss my ass.  for a while i just need to get away from it all, which is just not going to happen because we have one member of the family that is totally selfish and thinks only of themselve, then we have everyone else who just does not care.  it is frustrating.  there are days that i just hate my life, and sadly the last few weeks i have been stuck there.

thanks world, fuck you to...

Sookie...

OMG!!!

 SPOILERS AHEAD!!!

If you have not yet read Charlaine Harris's new Sookie book Dead Reckoning then do not read furthur.

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED, DO NOT BITCH TO ME IF YOU CHOOSE TO CONTINUE READING!!!

SPOILERS ARE PRESENT HERE!!!

I read the new Sookie book last week, I had it finished Tuesday, lol, it only came out Tuesday I know, but I have been waiting.  I Love Eric, he is just the most dreamy character ever written, and yes I know that I will probably sound like a fangirl and I do not care.  Anyways, I have been holding this in for a week, and I have no where else to vent, so here I am...

WHY THE HELL DID SHE BREAK THE BLOOD BOND!!!!

What is going to happen now, after the whole thing with his maker and the fairies do they not deserve a little bit of peace and quiet, from the Two Blondes story it seemed as though everything was going well, but NO, Eric is supposed to marry a queen, someone whom he does not have any wish to marry, so nope, no peace.  I mean could we have not have had just like half a book of Eric and Sookie happy together, would that have been to much to ask for, probably, I guess, it would seem so, It It ANNOYING!!!

I am just so depressed, Eric is the whole reason that I read that series, yeah sure, Sookie is ok, but Eric is my entertainment, and while Sam is a nice enough guy, he is BORING.  I know he is a shapeshifter, but he is safe, I do not want safe, if I did I would write my own story about my life, please do not get me wrong, I love my husband, he is my center, my world, but when I read I want to go to another world for awhile, I just want to visit, you know?  And Sam is like my hubby, he is a great guy, he is caring, and he is stable and always there.  But he is not ERIC!!!  I do not know what I would do if Eric was relegated to an appearance here and there, but not a major role, I would cry if he started moping around like Bill does, poor man/vamp whatever, he has become a bit pathetic, and I am sorry, but Sookie is just not that amazing.  Anita is that amazing, Sookie is not, which is probably why people can relate to her, she is normal, so she can read minds, that does not matter she is the girl next door, and we get to watch her deal with extraordinary circumstances, I love these books, but I need Eric in them, he is the clincher for me.

I hope that Charlaine Harris actually keeps them together, Eric can be ruthless, but he is what Sookie needs, and more importantly, he is what I need. 

lol, selfish I know, ok, I guess that is all for the night, rant done...